Job? Moving? Israel?

So I thought that getting a job would be easy.

Wrong.

I thought convincing my parents to help me move to Cali would be no problem.

Wrong.

I thought telling my parents that all I want for Hannukah is a plane ticket to Israel so that they would get it for me would be no sweat.

Wrong.

It seems that everything I've done in the past few years of my life has been fuck up after fuck up after fuck up. I'm sorry to swear and be so negative, but I'm severely depressed right now. I should really go see Ari, or David or someone. I just need to get away from all the negativity right now. Man this is a downer. The Schwartz's told me that i would baby sit 30+ hours a week. But oh yeah, I've babysat 2 hours so far. 2 fucking hours. I need money you stupid stick up the arse parents.

Look I don't really mean it, I'm just frustrated. I need a new laptop, mine is falling apart as we speak. Now my rich uncle is coming in this weekend but no dice on getting money or anything. Not that I would accept money from him. No matter how desperate I am. This is disgusting. Circuit City hasn't called me back which makes me really upset.

Damn you circuit city! Ok nope just kidding. They did say they would call Tuesday or Wednesday. Its like dangling cheese in front of a starving mouse. Yeah just call me the starving mouse. DAMN IT!

Rocky Horror= Good

I enjoyed myself. I think my problem is that Tori and Toby are moving to Laconia, Stephen is at Keene State, Lyza and Leah are still in High School, Ari moved to Cali, Eytan is in Arizona, and I'm still at home, like a fucking loser.

I'm going crazy.

So now you know.

With Many Death Glares,

Sarah

Planes Trains and Cash Money

I'm going to Israel... Holy shit I'm going to Israel... I think. I have been waiting for this moment for a while. So my only hanukah present from my parents is a round-trip ticket to the promised land, I can deal with it. I wanted to surprise Aaron and just show up at his house... but maybe thats not a good idea because he might make plans with his friends or something like that so i told him to keep February open.

I'm not 100% sure that this is going to happen but here's to hoping.

I'm so pumped for tomorrow. I'm heading down to Salem, going shopping and then I think I'm staying at my friend Lyza's house. I mean I hope I am... but if not, then C'est La Vie. I AM going to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show, live in Portsmouth. I'm excited, and a little nervous... I should get dressed up but i don't really know what to wear. Lingerie probably but um, I'm not exactly comfortable with that... so a corset?? woot? I don't know.

On the job front, absolutely nothing, I am still jobless, minus my nanny gig, but i fucking need another job i need money I'm going CRAZY!

Crazy Sarah = Not Pretty

Kisses,

Sarah



At Latrun At The Tank Memorial/Museum

Volunteering in Bat Yam

My kitty on Kibbutz

First Post

So to start off, let me tell you a little about myself. I was born in Boston. I lived in Brookline until I was 4 and then my parents decided to move to the burbs. By burbs i mean New Hampshire. It sounds terrible, New Hampshire, nothing but forests and farms, which is only partially true. I love it here. Tax free shopping, and I'm not too far from Boston, only about an hour away.

So I started high school, then my parents divorced, and then we moved. So instead of living on the Massachusetts border, i lived on the Maine border. So I'm sure you're thinking, holy shit now she really is in the middle of nowhere, and i would respond with a smile and shake my head. I'm only and hour and a half from Boston and i live on the coast. It's a pretty nice area, and I'm happy about it but ya know.

I was (and still am kind of) a spoiled brat. I graduated from high school, barely, and then escaped to Israel. Israel was supposed to be my saving grace. Unfortunately I was lazy, and didn't accomplish a damn thing. So came back from Israel, not really wanting to leave.

There are four people in my life (besides my family) that I would do anything for:

Vicky: we became best friends within my first hour of being in Israel in 2005. We've been friends ever since. I love her so much and miss her like woah!

Aaron: This kid is THE love of my life. He means the world to me and whenever I go back to Israel you know he's really the only reason I'm going. Okay okay, maybe I really do love the country but I love Aaron a little more.

Ari: Ari is, um, Ari is my best friend, my world. In fact a little part of me is missing when I'm not with her. I could probably talk about all the ways I love her for hours. I think you understand where I'm going with that.

Eytan: Ari's boyfriend. Ari Eytan and I made the "triangle" and it was fabulous. God those were the days. Eytan is like my older brother, god i miss him....

Aaron and Vicki live in israel while Ari and Eytan live in Cali. So I'm going to be visiting all four of them soon. Thank the lord.

So now I'm back in New Hampshire with no money, no job, and no life plan. It's hard. I need to work, I need to make money, I need to figure out what I'm going to do with my life So I can well, move to Israel and visit everyone i want to. Should be interesting. Wish me luck.

Kisses,

Sarah





Me and Aaron


Goofing around in Ari's room


Eytan Ari and Myself on our last night together